These few days I have been feeling really down and moody. Emotions get piling up and up, I don't know what to do. Yet I still have to stay strong and tried to control my tears from flowing down. It's really tough. I don't know who to turn to besides Junhong. I don't want to reveal the weak me to others.

On tuesday, I saw a news regarding a SP student get stabbed and he died during attachment at china. I was still telling myself that I won't know the person. However on wednesday, through the new paper article, then i realized the SP student is my club mate. He is my junior and I still remembered vividly that he was in my group during the FO Camp.

From what I know about him, Vincent is an independent person and someone who loves archery a lot as well as metal music. The news about him was really too shocking for me. I was stunned when I saw the article. I felt sad when someone whom I know has passed away, whats more he is only age 18+. Thats too young... I really felt very sad over this issue and worse of all when I could not attend his wake tonight! My supervisor asked me to find replacements for Junhong and me when I realized during Friday, almost all the staffs are working! I am really disappointed, why can't they be more understanding? ROAR.

Next, the burden that has always exist, which is my FYP. It is getting nearer and nearer towards the SPINNOVEX interview. But yet we just can't get the program up. I am feeling stressed up and tired. I am being pushed to grow up, to be independent, to be strong under the circumstances I am facing as well as the people round me. ROAR. FYP is the priority, entertainment and others unneccessary things should be placed after the interview that's what I feel. And I believe that if you're serious over the work, your soul and body should be there to face any challenges. (:

And suddenly I remembered about Monday when I was called to Mr Ronny Tham's office and Mrs Teo office over the racist video. LOL. So "lucky" of me that I'm the only one who bears the same name as the person who posted it. But it's definitely not me ok. (: